Saturday, October 16, 2004

I thought about motherhood in the middle of the night. I was just thinking how my classmate, a mere few months older than me, can actually balance motherhood and school work. Her bubbly daughter is already 18 months old, and I am so envious that when she is 42, said daughter would be 21!

I just kept thinking whether I will ever be ready for motherhood. I am very attached to my mum because she is the most devoted mum I have ever known. Will i be able to match up to her? She is firm yet friendly, she teaches but not preaches. I am so blessed to have a mother like her, each day I look at her and count my blessings.

Will my children turn out to be psychotic or unbalanced because I am not good enough? Will i spoil them too much or be too harsh on them? Would they respect me? Fear me? Hate me?

Considering I have problems getting attached, maybe I am thinking too far ahead.

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Anyway I made my way to Sharon's place at Youngberg Terrace and lost my way. Crossed the road to take the bus when I was not supposed to and ended up opposite the fire station in Serangoon. In the end, her parents had to drive out to fetch me to their place. What a great way to be introduced to your student's parents ha. Sharon is sort of shaky in her Chem so i have a month to perform some really major miracles!

The heat must have gotten into my mind, fried some circuits etc. I actually agreed to go for an interview at MJC! MJC is only, say, 1 hr 45 min away from my home. It's still in Mainland Singapore... I messaged Dan and we decided to change my interview date from Wednesday to Saturday so that he could go with me. Eh there's still almost no way that I will teach in freaking Eastern Siberia but will keep my options open.

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Met Cynthia, our great MOF economist on the train. Of course she complained about work (I can empathise)... Finally met HC for a train ride home then dinner. She even has to bring work home after slogging till 5 p.m. on a Saturday! Girl, quit that job! I seriously can't see what is so attractive about the job. I actually wanted to try the Tom Yam fried chicken from KFC but all the fat molecules were waving their glycerol tails at me so I changed my mind.

Dan is having computer woes, oh man, that sucks given his assignments are due soon.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

kfc's tom yam chicken is really lousy.. hard, tough and un-tom-yam-ly :( -qi-